Just breathe ~ learning to take time to breathe when bad things happen

That moment you hear bad news. The feeling of dread settling over you. You hold your breath – not daring to breathe or your whole world will fall apart.

We heard the terrible news last week that my mom’s cancer in her lungs was stage 4 cancer and what we were told were small spots on her lungs were actually, in reality, 2 cm in diameter. She was told she had 1-2 years to live. Perhaps 3-4 because she was really healthy before the cancer hit. She has a rare and aggressive type of cancer – leiomyosarcoma – that chemo won’t kill. Only slow down and prolong her life.

A friend from Australia probably said it best when I told her the news – ‘You must all be reeling.’ Reeling. Yes. Spinning out of control. Finding out my mom now has a death sentence on her head. Trying to stop crying. To put on my big girl panties and start dealing with the reality of what’s going on.

Last Friday, I took my mom to get the port installed for her chemo treatments. This song by Johnny Diaz came on the radio when we left her house – Breathe – reminding me to take a deep breath and deal with what’s going on in today. Don’t worry about tomorrow …just breathe. 

Later that night when we left the hospital it was playing as well:

Just breathe

Just breathe,

Come and rest 

At my feet

And be,

Just be

Chaos calls

But all you really need 

Is to just breathe.

Purple hydrangeas
Purple hydrangeas

 

 

Ivy creeping along a fence.
Ivy creeping along a fence.

 

 

Pink hibiscus
Pink hibiscus

 

 

Fall ivy
Fall ivy

 

 

Sunflower
Sunflower

 

*Please keep my family in your thoughts and prayers as we are going through this. Today is my mom’s biopsy to confirm what the cat scan has already told us about her cancer before her chemo treatments begin.

 

2 thoughts on “Just breathe ~ learning to take time to breathe when bad things happen

  1. Hi Maureen,

    So sorry to hear of your Mum’s diagnosis. We’re going through exactly the same thing with my Dad. He was perfectly healthy, then we found out in the space of two weeks that he had aggressive prostate cancer. It has spread and at best he will have 3 years of good quality life, and maybe 2 of ‘not great’ after that, if we’re lucky. It hit us like a ton of bricks. He’s in the middle of chemo treatment to try and get those 3 good years. Love to you, and all your family.

    1. I am so sorry to hear about your dad. I wish they had better cancer treatment out there. Too many people are dying from it and chemo isn’t helping.
      Love and prayers to you and yours.

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