I could really use a wish right now, wish right now, wish right now

I haven’t been on here much. All I can say is “I can really use a wish right now, wish right now, wish right now…”

I hold in my hand a wish. A tiny spark of hope.

I hold in my hand a wish. A tiny spark of hope. Hope for the future. Hope for life. Hope of things to come.

A miracle, new hope. It feels like God’s grace is running out for my mom. Where is the grace I felt God telling me about way back when I wrote the blog post What’s Grace got to do With it? Really, who am I to talk? I am not God. But I am me, and that’s what it feels like. We pray for a miracle, knowing it may not be granted. Knowing many before my mom have succumbed to the awful disease called cancer with nary a miracle in sight. Yet I pray every day for one, knowing my answer may be ‘No.’

My mom took a turn for the worse after getting on the new trial drug she had been getting a placebo of during her two years in the trial program at OHSU. The trial drug caused excruciating pain in her stomach and a loss of appetite. She was in the hospital twice in less than a week. Now she is home in hospice care and was taken off the trial drug. Her stomach pain has subsided and her appetite is very slowly coming back. She’s mostly eating soft food or liquid.

To those who have thought to send gift of fruit baskets, Omaha Steaks, Freshly or Instacart so my dad can get groceries delivered to his door or who brought home cooked meals or goodies. Many thanks to you. A special thanks to the writer of the note on one saying “Mary, eat!” When I read that to my mom. She smiled and decided to try eating a slice of apple. Thank you for being God’s hands extended to my parents during this tough time. For any who stopped by their house, thank you for helping lift her spirits. Thank you also for any and all prayers sent out way right now.

It doesn’t feel like Christmas around here. Mostly we stopped shopping for Christmas when things took a turn for the worst for my mom. But I honestly feel like we have Christmas all wrong. It’s not supposed to be about commercialism at it’s finest. It’s about God sending his gift to us – baby Jesus in manager.

I think Charles Schulz got it right with Linus’s speech in a Charlie Brown Christmas:

Linus Van Pelt“And there were in the same country shepherds abiding in the field, keeping watch over their flock by night. And lo, the angel of the Lord came upon them, and the glory of the Lord shone round about them: and they were sore afraid. And the angel said unto them, ‘Fear not:
“for behold, I bring unto you good tidings of great joy, which shall be to all people. For unto you is born this day in the City of David a Savior, which is Christ the Lord. And this shall be a sign unto you; Ye shall find the babe wrapped in swaddling clothes, lying in a manger.’ And suddenly there was with the angel a multitude of the heavenly host, praising God, and saying, ‘Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace, good will toward men.'”
That’s what Christmas is all about, Charlie Brown.’

So, at the risk of sounding like my Christmas spirit person (animal?), The Grinch. I leave you with this:

And on earth peace, good will towards men…

*Photos taken by me on a trip last month to Edgefield, mcmenamins in Troutdale, OR

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Greensleeves

What could be more seasonal than a sweater dress with greensleeves like the Christmas song, otherwise known as What Child is This? Paired with my winter leggings, also worn here. Some would say the leggings are Christmasy, but with snowflakes instead of Santas or Christmas trees, I would say they are just wintery. Good to wear all winter long! Which is better in my book than leggings that are limited to wear only after Thanksgiving until the end of December.

 

Green sweater dress, patterned leggings, black wedge boots + black faux fur lined cardigan

 

Also, not sure why I’m channeling my inner Mary Poppins in these photos with my umbrella up in the air. (I haven’t seen the new movie yet, but hope to some day.) Mostly I was trying to keep the rain off my head while still allowing you to see the fun colorful trees at Fanno Farms U-cut tree lot.

 

Green sweater dress, patterned leggings, black wedge boots + black faux fur lined cardigan

 

I kept driving by this lot on my way to set this fall. The colorful trees painted while still growing in the ground really caught my eye. So fun! I wanted to come back and do a photo shoot before the holiday was over. So this is where I was unconsciously-(ish) heading on a rainy day a few days ago. I had it in the back of my mind but couldn’t remember the name of it, or how far down the road it was, so if it was half-way back to Scio, I wouldn’t have kept going forever just to find it. I think…

 

Green sweater dress, patterned leggings, black wedge boots + black faux fur lined cardigan Green sweater dress, patterned leggings, black wedge boots + black faux fur lined cardigan Green sweater dress, patterned leggings, black wedge boots + black faux fur lined cardigan

Green sweater dress, patterned leggings, black wedge boots + black faux fur lined cardigan

Green sweater dress, patterned leggings, black wedge boots + black faux fur lined cardigan

Green sweater dress, patterned leggings, black wedge boots + black faux fur lined cardigan

 

I’m loving the puff sleeve trend that is in right now. So cute. This sweater dress had just a bit of puff sleeves Not too poofy, though. Just a little bit.

 

Green sweater dress, patterned leggings, black wedge boots + black faux fur lined cardigan Green sweater dress, patterned leggings, black wedge boots + black faux fur lined cardigan

 

I hope you all are almost ready for Christmas. Less than one week now!

 

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~ All photos were taken by Calvin Hodgson.  You can find his work on Flickr and on his blog.

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