Maybe it’s okay if I’m not okay

I’ll be honest with you: I have not been okay at every moment this week. Sometimes, the newest news on my moms cancer leaves us reeling. The last news we got was that kind of news. Not good. The tumor on her ilium bone is about the size of a small tennis ball and was described by her doctor as looking like it was ‘bursting out of her bone’. She’s in a lot of pain and has started radiation treatment just for that spot. So far she’s reported it feels worse since she started radiation than before she began. Hopefully this changes as they start shrinking it down. Keep her in your prayers. Pray the trial drug gets approved through a patient assistance program so they can afford it. Pray for a miracle. There is no cure for this kind of cancer. Just a trial drug that buys time.

So, suffice it to say, I haven’t been totally okay. I couldn’t smile my way through this photo shoot last weekend, even though some smiles were caught. And that’s okay. Sometimes, it’s okay to not be okay.

I’ve been playing this song over and over: Maybe It’s Ok by We are Messengers.

Maybe it’s ok if I’m not ok
‘Cause the One who holds the world is holding onto me
Maybe it’s all right if I’m not all right
‘Cause the One who holds the stars is holding my whole life

Brown 3/4 sleeve blazer, Ross, zebra print skirt, gifted to me, similar here, brown OTK boots, Shop Girl Consignment, Kate Spade New York handbag, gifted to me, bronze earrings, Kohl’s, floral statement necklace, gifted to me, brown metallic watch, Ross

Let’s talk about this skirt, though. Zebra print. So cute! Loving the zebra print fad. I paired it with a chocolate brown blazer I got at Ross a few years ago, chocolate brown OTK boots I found at a consignment shop in Gresham last fall, bronze jewelry and a bright pink Kate Spade handbag gifted to me a couple of years ago, which adds a nice pop of color as well.

As always, thank you for stopping by and thank you for any prayers for my mom.

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~ All photos were taken by Calvin Hodgson.  You can find his work on Flickr and on his blog.

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Goodwill hunting

I’ve been on a bit of a thrift store kick lately. This is not normal for me. Usually I’d only drop in a Goodwill store once or twice a year, but I’ve been several times over the past month and a half.

It may have started when someone I was on the set of Shrill doing background acting work with mentioned that she wished she could remember the pattern for their half off colors. She had a friend who used to work for Goodwill, and had been told at some point what the pattern was but now she couldn’t remember anymore. Ha! I knew there was a pattern, but a friend told me they probably mix it up randomly when I mentioned they might have a pattern. So, off I’ve been for the past 6 weeks trying to crack the pattern for the half off merchandise.

 

Berry pink sweater, purple skinny jeans, brown puffer vest, rose gold sunglasses, purple cuff socks, bronze handbag, pink and gold tassel earrings + taupe combat boots #falloutfit

 

The first week I went it was Blue, the next Green. I was sure it was backwards rainbow colors at this point, even thought there are no orange tags, but the next week the color was Purple. Then they went to Red, then yellow. And again, at this point, I was sure I knew which color was next because the only color left was pink. Nope. Wrong again. They skip pink entirely and then went right back to Blue. I’m guessing, since some of the pink tagged merchandise looks like brand new or name brand, they probably skip that color entirely and never put it on half off. So, there, I cracked the pattern. Next week will be green again. I know, any thrifty people out there will thank me later, right?

 

Berry pink sweater, purple skinny jeans, brown puffer vest, purple cuff socks + taupe combat boots

 

You’ll have to guess which items I got that were from Goodwill in this week’s outfit.

 

Berry pink sweater, purple skinny jeans, brown puffer vest, purple cuff socks, pink and gold tassel earrings + taupe combat boots #falloutfit Berry pink sweater, purple skinny jeans, brown puffer vest, purple cuff socks, bronze handbag, pink and gold tassel earrings + taupe combat boots #falloutfit

Berry pink sweater, purple skinny jeans, brown puffer vest, rose gold sunglasses,  purple cuff socks, bronze handbag, pink and gold tassel earrings + taupe combat boots #falloutfit

Berry pink sweater, purple skinny jeans, brown puffer vest, purple cuff socks + taupe combat boots #falloutfit

Berry pink sweater, purple skinny jeans, brown puffer vest, purple cuff socks, bronze handbag, pink and gold tassel earrings + taupe combat boots #falloutfit

Rose gold sunglasses, butterfly stud earrings, yellow and gold tassel earrings

Berry pink sweater, purple skinny jeans, brown puffer vest, rose gold sunglasses, purple cuff socks, bronze handbag, pink and gold tassel earrings + taupe combat boots #falloutfit

 

Here’s the scoop: the sweater was a Goodwill find for only $3.49 on a half off day for that color tag. The tassel earrings along with the little butterfly ones were also a Goodwill find for $2.49 for both pairs (together) on a half off day for their color tag. The brown puffer vest was given to me from a friend. The jeans were on clearance at Kohl’s. The socks were on clearance at Marshall’s, while the sunglasses were from Ross as well as the shoulder bag. The taupe combat boots were free – won in an affiliate marketing contest a few years ago with a company I work for. Also, the wedge sandals worn last week here were found at Goodwill for only $3.99 on a half off day for their color tag. The only question now is to see if I can stop going in there every week or if I’m addicted to thrifting at this point.

 

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